Lesson 8: Being Pushed Away....

Sometimes it's hard to see past the blinders in life. Sometimes it's impossible to admit when your wrong. And it always takes a life time to finally see the truth. By then, it's usually too late. The important people in your life won't be there anymore because you've pushed them away. They've left you because you can't get over yourself and your insecurities. It's a shame when this happens, and you never realize how bad you messed up until you do get over these irritating problems that you cause so many people. And it never bothers you, because you don't see it in time.
I have a few people in my life who are like this. It's terrible really. They know I'd do anything for them but in return I get treated like something they could lie down and walk over, like they do.
It amazes me how some people can so easily treat others like this. Especially others that actually care about them, others who have actually been there and would usually be there under any circumstance , but how can someone be there if you don't let them? If you don't want them? All in all, it may hurt you at first to let them go because they push you away, but that's not a choice that's ours. And in the end, maybe they'll realize that they did wrong, that it's their fault and they missed out. And if they do, hopefully they hurt as bad as you did when they were pushing you away.

Lesson 7: Family........

Family is suppose to be the greatest gift of all, weather or not you feel that way, that's how it's suppose to be. This doesn't mean that it's going to feel this way. Family is suppose to have your back. Family is suppose to be there. Not hating each other. Standing by one another, side by side just as an army fighting for their nation would. We're to fight for each other against what's wrong, stand up for each other. This is what I used to believe.
Now, I understand it's not always going to be this way. Some family will always be there for each other in some way, though they will fight and argue with each, disagree at times, they'll be there. Sometimes you can't stand up for one of them though. Sometimes you have to just let things go, let things blow over and not take a side. I believe this especially when fighting involves people you love on both sides. I don't agree that you can blame all family problems on just one member of that family though. It takes two to tango, and that works when you're speaking of family disputes, or any altercation for that matter. It's not a fight if the opponent doesn't swing back, it's a beating.
Though every family has their quarrel's, they also have their gladsome days where everyone is happy and for the most part, carefree. Being around people we love and people who return that love always creates a greater feeling of happiness for any individual. When we're not worrying about how we look, we focus more on what we're doing. I will say it doesn't hurt to put on some appealing or at least appropriate paraphernalia, looking decent and smelling good always makes a person more likeable. But if you're already around people who love you for you, that shouldn't be your main focus. And family that appreciates you for being yourself won't base the whole day on that minor detail. All I'm saying I guess is it's easier to be comfortable around people you love, you shouldn't have to put on a face for them.

Families do work in mysterious ways. One day they'll get upset with you over something so insignificant and they next, they'll be the same loving people they were two days ago. And it's normal to have at least one person in your family who is controlling, one whose competitive, and the one or few in-laws who are complete schmo's and you don't feel like being around them. But you usually learn to live with them.
I guess all I can really say is there aren't a lot of people out there these days that you can put a lot of trust into. Who you can really say love you and will be there for you and who have been there for you. Your family are the people who you could be horrible to and eventually, if they see past your mistakes, they'll still love you. There really aren't a lot of people who you can say that about. Don't lose sight of what's right in front of you. Keep your family close, let them know they're important.

Lesson 6: Mistakes. . .

Something we can all look forward to having throughout life are mistakes. We all make them, even if we don't admit to them when we do make them. We can always fix them though and some people don't see that, or when they do, they don't do anything to fix it. I admit that I realize my mistakes but I still haven't done anything to make them better. I still mess up. And all of us will mess up more than once. I believe though that there comes a time when we need to figure out what we're doing and figure out how to make things better for our selves. No one can take better care of you than you. That's what it comes down to is everything is up to us. We make a life for ourselves, we fix and make our own mistakes, we depend on ourselves.
Without mistakes in our lives, we would be lost. That is my honest opinion. Making mistakes teaches us things that no one else can teach us. We can be told or warned, but it's not the same effect as learning on your own through your own troubles. Sure, making mistakes always has a person feeling amiss, but we learn to cope, because in the end we are benefiting ourselves.
If you make a mistake and you know you did, think about it. Think about how to fix it and what it is teaching you in the long run. When you know what you did wrong and can help yourself fix it, it's just another step in the direction of responsibility and in my opinion, bettering yourself.

Lesson 5: Life, MY opinion

The road of life is always unclear. No matter who walks it. You have no idea as to what obstacles you'll face, or how much fun life just might be. Or if you'll ever feel pain and misery. You will never know if you'll find true love, or if you will ever complete your dreams. You will never know if you can truly trust someone, or if people are even real in the first place. You'll never know if you'll end up walking through life with some one who is real, that you can trust. You'll never know what is really thought about you. Is it good or is it bad? So many things are unclear in life. There are very few things that are certain. One thing that I believe is that your destiny was set for you even before you walked this Earth. You may think that you know your destiny and then try to change it, but I believe that whatever you do, if you can do it, then it was meant to be done. You may not believe or even understand this, but I do. This is what I truly believe.

Though some people may not believe this to be certain in life, two things are. One is that you are certain to have only one true dependent in life. That is yourself. The other thing that you are certain to is death, and to die alone.

I understand......

I now understand what I hadn't before. I use to think that people who cut themselves were so stupid...Like it was just for attention, which in some cases, it is. But, I now understand why most people do it. It's a matter of them not being able to take mental pain but being able to take physical pain. When I say mental pain, I mean things such as bad emotions or even depression. Some people just don't want to face their problems or their pains, so they cut themselves instead. Watching the blood trickle down their arms, as if watching all of their pains wash away. Like they shouldn't have a care in the world anymore. But though they may think it's good for them, it could lead to so much worse. If someone were to cut them self every time something bad happened, and it was only a small problem, imagine what their going to do if something so horrendous happened that they couldn't bare it. They wouldn't just slightly cut themselves. They would slit their entire wrist.......

I just had a wakeup call.......

Sometimes people are oblivious to everything. Sometimes, their not. Some people litter, some people clean it up. Some people are more conservative. Some just don't give a damn. I believe it's time we start caring about others and our surrounding! The world takes life one day at a time, and for some of us, that's a good decision because we're not even sure if we'll see tomorrow. But the whole world doing this? Even if you say you don't, you kind of do. Look at this war we're in for example. Why are we still fighting? No one thinks about tomorrow, and when I say that, I mean no one thinks about the future. What about the kids of our soldiers? Or what about the kids of Iraq's soldiers? You kill today, that's one more kid who's parent less tomorrow. You don't think!
Everyone is always saying that us kids are the future of tomorrow, or something like that. So why would you jeopardize that? Sometimes, even the smallest of things can affect the way we think or feel. What if it all turns bad? I mean our thoughts or how we feel. What if by just one of our closest friend or even our parent dieing caused us to go into a complete meltdown and all of our happy thoughts turn into angry, depressive ones? That will corrupt a kid, or even an adult.
People these days don't care enough about how others feel . They don't care about how certain actions will affect others! Think about the future. Think about your kids. Do you really want to grow up like some countries where they have children learn to use riffles when their only about five or six just to prepare them for war? Do you really want this world we live in to be just filled with hate, discrimination, and ungrateful people? Would you really subdue your kids to that? Do you really want to?
I know I just asked a lot of questions, but if I don't ask them, who will? Really think about this, that is, if you actually care at all about something besides yourself.

Lesson 4: Open up.....

How many people just keep their problems and emotions to their selves? And how many of you that do, feel like you are about to explode into tears thinking that you will feel better afterwards? I bet almost all of you do....But I don't think that that is the problem. Maybe you just need to find someone you can trust, someone you can confide in and tell all of your secrets to or tell them how you really feel or your opinions about things. Someone that won't judge you, won't laugh at your ideas or at you in general. Finding someone like this will probably be hard for a lot of people. Especially for those who don't trust easily.
When people begin to open up, most of the time, they begin to feel a little better. To me, it feels so mush better when I'm able to just talk to someone. You don't feel like you're carrying a huge weight on your shoulders. You can relax a bit more.
I have maybe one person that I trust like this. One person that I could tell anything to and that knows just about everything about me. This person is a family member. Maybe that's where you might want to start. Someone inside your family is more familiar to you then anyone else so it should naturally be easier for you to talk to them. (Unless you have a bad surrounding or bad life at home) When you talk to someone inside your family, it should be someone you can trust with anything and that this person won't tell anyone else what you told them, NO MATTER WHAT IT IS.

If you're one of those people who someone else feels that they can talk to, don't blow that. It's not always easy for people to talk to others. It should be a privilege to you that someone actually feels that they trust you enough to they point where they tell you how they feel, whats wrong, their dreams, or their secrets. Even if you don't think so, it's true. A lot of people aren't very trusting when they get older, so this especially applies to young adults such as middle schoolers or high schoolers.
Who talks to you is important, and who you talk to is important. Treat others as if you care. More people will open up to you. And the more you treat others as if you care, they more they get comfortable with opening up and the better they'll feel.